As thought about after the Good Friday service and an order of fish and chips it I realized my problem. I was trying to live a dual life to the point I was approaching a mental breakdown. I am one who lives in and other subculture one of Loners, not those who stereotypical wish to harm others to who dedicated to a life of solitude. It why for example I am 48 and never married, I simply can not function with others except possibly another loner. A good book (while I do not agree with everything) that explains what makes me tick is A Party of One by Anneli Rufus You can read about it here http://www.annelirufus.com/partyofone/

The problem is my Loner tendencies are direct conflict with the communal nature of a furry fandom and social networking. In an allegorical way, I have a Black Bear inside me, when I am confronted I do not agree with, I turn around and isolate myself rather than confront. I only confront if it intrude on my life. It why I am I can Function as a Hello Kitty Fan and A Science fiction fan

In the end I will be making some changes. Acton is not longer the Republican Black Bear But now Acton the Hermit. It will be more reflective on my real life. I will soon move from a live journal to a word press blog on my own server. Here that hard part effective immediately I will be defrending most of you all. Please do not take it seriously, but unless you have something I am interested in or an interesting personality. I also must confess social networking conflict with my lifestyle. I do not make friends in quantity. This not to say I would not like to meet you at a fur meet or a con I just need my space.